Mile Stone

I hit a big mile stone this morning. I am under 200lbs. I am 199. I have not been under 200 since fall of 2007. I can't tell a difference yet in my body. 18lbs is only a drop in the bucket when you have as much to lose as I do. But it felt good to get on the scale this morning and not see a 2. Still no pics I think I will take and post pics every month. So I will post on the 20th of May. The before and after.

18 days in

It has been 18 days now. This is how it has gone....
first week down 15 lbs.
second week down 2 lbs.
third week...so far...gained a lb.

How do I feel. I am very very very hungry. I know I am not eating all that I should. I am having a hard time getting my two protein shakes in. Time gets by me. I am really hungry. I don't quite get hunger pains, but I want to eat. I want to do the snacking and eat something good and chew it!!!!

Really how do I feel besides hungry???? I did not expect to feel so emotional. I am so cranky, emotional, and irritable. My kids and husband are being very patient with me. Scott keeps saying "eat a cheeseburger already and lighten up!!!" I find myself crying over everything. I have a friend that had the surgery and she said I must be mourning food. I think I am. I am learning that my life is pretty pathetic! the only thing I had to look forward to must have been meals. Explains how i got over 200lbs. and now I feel like I have nothing to look forward to. I need to find something in my life to look forward to. Food was my best friend and now I am looking for a new one.