Might Not Happen

I know I just post good news about April 20th, but now it might not happen. I just got a call from the surgeon's office and my lab work did not come back so great. My thyroid is not functioning right. I have to see my family Dr. before they will progress any further. I am ready to give up and just not do it. So much time and money invested. I am so tired. It has been a huge emotional roller coaster. What should I do now?

April 20th?????

I got my 2nd opinion on my psych consult and it went great, despite the kind of day I was having. I have been extremely emotional these past two months because of some events that have taken place in the last two months. So every time I get in the car by myself I start to cry as my mind thinks about tragedy, death and loss. When I dropped my kids off with my friend to watch so I could go to my psych appointment, I told her I was going to listen to only fun uplifting music on my drive and repeat positive thoughts so when I arrived for my appointment I would be calm and not walk in with blood shot eyes from crying. My plan almost worked. when arrived in the parking lot at the Dr's office I got some really bad news about the death of my nephews' father. I was so sad for them and almost left the parking lot and just drove home. I knew there was no way I could go into the office in the state I was in. But I went ahead and went in. I knew I needed to just get this done. I had shuffled the kids off to different houses and the dr's was a little trip away, I had to just go in and hope for the best that I would pass my psych consult. So I disclosed all info to the dr as soon as I entered his office because he could tell I was emotional. He asked if I wanted to reschedule, I told him rescheduling was way too hard for me and asked him to just go through it and hope that I could compose myself. We got through it and he was very nice! He was very patient and understanding of my situation and passed me with flying colors.

I called the surgeons office a few days later to tell them to throw out the first psych consult and make sure only the 2nd one got sent in. They said they never even got a first one. That dr. I first saw three months ago never even sent in her eval.....what a flake. She was very weird. She was more concerned with billing when I met with her. She kept talking about how she was going to bill it to the insurance as two appointments because it takes her an hour to write up the eval. she seemed to just be doing it for the money and not really to help people.

I asked the office when they thought I would hear back from them about insurance approval and get a surgery date. They told me my packet was incomplete........What????? incomplete? I thought I was done! They said I had two blood tests that had to be submitted. But they did give me some good news. They said that they would be me on the calendar for April 2oth then that way when I got my blood tests done and they heard back from insurance with a yes then I would have a date already. So I went and got my blood tests a week ago and I am anxiously awaiting a phone call from the surgeons office. Then I will go for some more pre op tests and appointments and my surgeory will happen on April 20th!!! Yay!!! Scott has already asked work for that week off. We are being very hopeful. And we are already making plans for what we want to do that week that he is off as I am recovering. We are planning to watch all of the episodes of Lost from beginning to current. We love that show and have followed it from the beginning but we are LOST right now and need a refresher course.

Last night I was at the store with Scott and had my eye on a few swimsuits I liked that hopefully by the end of summer I will not look too terrible in. Hopefully by August I might feel comfortable pool side. I hope!!!

Jumped Through My Last Hoop

So my final hoop to jump through has been my psych eval. I had posted last time that I had an appointment in early December that I had an appointment. I had that appointment but I did not fully pass. I passed, but I made the mistake of mentioning that I am worried about my husband. I have a few issues with saying no to his food plus a few other things. So the therapist recommended a couples therapy session before she recommended I get the surgery. I was not too worried about it. So I set up a session with a nice lady I had seen before. I asked her receptionist if she saw couples and she said yes. So Scott and I went off to our appointment. The counselor was put off by my request and let me know that she does not work with couples. I guess our insurance only has one family therapist on one base in our area and it is a four month waiting list to get in with her/him. (mmm....no wonder there is such a high divorce rate in the military.) I left really frustrated and ready to throw in the towel.

I talked to my surgeon consultant and she told me in all of her years of scheduling appointments that she has never heard of someone being told to have couples therapy before surgery. I told her what our issues were. She said they were no big deal and to just get a 2nd opinion and start over with a new psych consult. I spent an entire day on the phone calling my approved list of therapists. I left about 10 messages around town. I finally heard back from one. I went to my appointment today and it feels so good to get it done. This one went really well. He said he will get the paperwork in by Friday. I am hoping to get a call from the surgeon within two weeks with a surgery date and my date will be around one month from then. I can not wait to get the call!!!! So I am guessing my surgery will be in about 6 weeks. I can not wait. It has been exactly a year since I was referred for the surgery by my nutritionist. It has been a long year. Lots of hurdles and hoops but I have jumped through them all.